2014: The Path to Blessings Instead of Bitterness

If I were to choose one word to describe what 2014 represented to me, it would be healing. 

healing: n. the process of making or becoming sound or healthy again.
healing: adj. tending to heal; therapeutic

Notice the -ing, the words process and tending. I didn’t choose healed, but healing.

Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually our family has walked a path of healing in 2014. At times it has hurt. At times the relief has come quickly and very noticeably. At times the healing has happened gradually and months later we have commented on how the event or pain has seemingly been removed. And some of the healing is still a work in process, but we see the progress.

2013 ended on a very turbulent note for all of us emotionally and spiritually. However, we powered through and God placed the right people in front of us every step of the way. 

We’ve done some things we always claimed we’d never do. We’ve gone some places we always said we’d never go. For some reason, in this season of our life, God has shown us something different through people we really haven’t known in our adult lives.

I spent the end of the school year and the beginning of the summer re-writing my curriculum to meet the Common Core State Standard requirements. While it was far from amazing, it’s unbelievable how much easier it was this time around. There’s something to be said for experience.

Lily went to tennis camp in Bolivar, Missouri, at Southwest Baptist College. She had a great time, and learned a lot. At the end of the week she earned the award for being the best listener. 

In July the kids went away to church camp and Chris and I headed away to Eureka Springs for a spa getaway. Two teenagers had an amazing time at church camp, and the two adults had an amazing time reconnecting and just enjoying each other’s company.


Once we all met up again we headed off to our dream family vacation: a rented condo on Sanibel Island, Florida. We headed out early to make a couple stops on the way. We got to catch a minor league game in Louisville, Kentucky, which was awesome. Then the next day we did the Louisville Slugger Factory tour which is why we actually went through that way. 

After Louisville Slugger we grabbed lunch and headed to tour Maker’s Mark distillery. The grounds there were beautiful. We got some amazing photos, met some teachers from another state, and took our tour with a large group of service men on leave. The young teachers were telling me about their summer jobs, one of them working in landscaping full-time during the summer to help make ends meet. It still shocks me that highly educated people have to work multiple jobs to live modest lives.

We then headed on to Florida. A short stop at an outlet mall. Yet another night in a hotel. And then on to our destination. We spent the majority of the week scouring through shells on the beach. We stopped on the bridge each way to and from the beach to watch the manatees. We did leave the condo and “our” beach a couple times during the week.

We drove to the Florida Everglades to go on an air-boat ride one day. That was a great experience, but it was incredibly hot. The drive there and back was almost as much fun as the actual tour. Probably because the drive was air-conditioned.

The other two times we left was to head to nearby Captiva Island. Once we went to go on a day long deep sea fishing/shelling excursion. That was a blast. Until a thunderstorm moved in and we had to head back in. We tried to reschedule, but got stormed out that day too. We all caught at least one fish on our short trip, and I latched on to something “big”. It was a ray, and I fought it all the way around the boat in the pouring rain before it pulled the line under the boat and broke the line. The ship captain saw it surface before it went under. It was enough to get everyone really excited before we had to head back to dock due to the weather.

The second time we headed to Captiva Island was to give the kids the experience of para-sailing. Chris and I had done this during our 2nd honeymoon while in the Dominican Republic. We loved it and have said ever since when we had the opportunity we’d let the kids do it. So, they did. However, we weren’t thinking and wore regular clothes. It was crazy hot standing on the beach in the full sun watching them fully dressed.

It was an amazing vacation. None of us wanted to head home when it was time, but school was drawing close and sports started the very next week.

Cameron ran cross country and played fall baseball while Lily played varsity tennis. After her week at tennis camp and getting contacts, Lily’s goal of getting the #1 spot became a reality. She was our #1 singles player her sophomore year. She came out really strong early in the season, and played point for point the rest of the season. As a sophomore playing seniors, she is in a good position for the next two years.

Between Cameron’s marching with band and running cross country weekends were spent driving from one town to the next trying to get to the next event on time. Add in auditioning for a church worship team and playing guitar a couple Sundays a month and his schedule was downright crazy all fall.

I feel like the last two months of 2014 has been nothing but doctor’s appointments. Probably because it has been filled with them for all four of us. Including one surgery followed by follow-ups and physical therapy for Chris. This one will follow us into the new year, but will hopefully result in a fully functional and healed shoulder.

After much goading, I finally asked for some help for myself. In the past several years I have pulled myself up by the bootstraps enough times that they couldn’t be reattached to the boots anymore. Sources say I am actually talking again, even if it is too much, and that you can tell I’m doing better by the look on my face.

Dumb that I waited so long. But considering the Christian counselor told me in the summer of 2012 that I needed to leave the church I was currently attending for a full year to reassess and not do any work in any church until that 12 month sabbatical was over, I told him he was crazy, didn’t return for my remaining sessions, and finally followed his advice September of 2013, well, I like to mull some things over first.

However, I went with someone else who wanted to get help just to sit in as a friend. I took a second person to get diagnosed and also get help when they weren’t sure they wanted it. And somewhere in the mix the two of them decided to ask me when I was going to get the help I needed. Yeah. I’m a little slow. It actually took another individual telling me they had recently reached out for help that made my decision.

I could choose to remain anxious and fearful of the next panic attack and how I would treat others because of it, or I could ask for help. Funny how I had no problem helping others get help, but couldn’t seem to do it for myself. 

In the mix we’ve also been attending the same church regularly for the last several months. I’ve been subbing as a youth leader for someone who had to be out for family things off and on the last few months. All of us have been involved with various mission projects. We’re finding joy in our serve again, but with the exception of Cameron none of us have committed to anything yet. 

We are healing. I am healing. I am letting go of guilt I was never intended to carry, and finding joy in my daily walk, in my daily life.

2014 has had its stressful moments. Its come with its share of growing pains and pruning pains. However, I can honestly say that I can see so much positive from this year that I am looking forward to moving forward. 

Thanks for the good times, growth, and healing 2014!

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6 responses to this post.

  1. You've certainly had a big year. I sincerely hope the healing continues in 2015 for you and your family.


  2. Sanibel is such a lovely place – have been there twice and could hunt for shells 24/7 if that was possible. It is so addictive. Was to Makers Mark years ago – wouldn't mind going back “one day”. May you and your family have a good 2015. Alana


  3. Your year was very full! Praying for a great year for you in 2015.


  4. Thank you do much for taking the time to read and for the well wishes! Happy New Year!


  5. Alana,
    We did one shell hunt at night when the tide went out with flashlights. Another with flashlights before the sun came up one morning.

    It was so amazingly peaceful. Slow pace. Relaxed people. Just what we needed. So with our wait and the drive.

    Happy New Year!


  6. Tammy,

    Thanks for dropping in to visit. Please visit again! Happy New Year!


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