Comfortless Comfort

com·forttransitive verb
Definition of COMFORT
1 :
to give strength and hope to : cheer

to ease the grief or trouble of : console
com·fort·ing·ly adverb
(Merriam Webster Online Dictionary)

Who do you go to for comfort?

This is a question our pastor asked during his sermon this morning. Our sermon was focused on who the Holy Spirit is and what He does.

John 14:26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

So, I paused to reflect. In my journey around the mountain of emotions, who do I go to for comfort? When I’ve been hurt, when I’m afraid, when I’m confused, who do I turn to for a shoulder?

Again, the answer is in.

I convince myself that everything is ok before I “turn” to anyone. I withdraw from everyone until I’m sure I’m “ok”. I have to process the emotion in it’s entirety before I can face anyone. Therefore, I don’t seek comfort in a traditional sense.

Some people have viewed my response to situations as callous or cold. That’s not true at all. I just don’t wear my pain for other to see. I deal with it out of sight.

In public I deal with things I can do something about. I’m the person who deals with the little details that mean nothing simply as a way not to deal with how I feel. I need something to focus on that gives me a “job” so I don’t have to feel. When faced with emotional situations, I become task-oriented in order to escape the possibility of an emotional outburst.

You see, in all truth, I’m not comfortable with the idea of being comforted. Which makes this one verse of scripture a little uncomfortable for me.

It’s printed in red letters. Which means Jesus said it. Which means it carries great weight.

Jesus wants me to be comforted. God the Father wants me to be comforted. The Holy Spirit is present to comfort me.

Why do I believe that I am more capable than the Trinity to comfort myself?

Is that what is really going on here? Do I believe that I am more capable than God who created me?

This journey around the mountain seems to be presenting more questions than answers, but the one question I can answer today is that I absolutely KNOW that God is more than capable of handling ALL my problems…especially the ones I create myself. I do know that He has great plans for me. Plans to give me a hope and future, not plans to harm me. Jeremiah 29:11 paraphrased is going to be my inspiration this week.


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